All the drama and the moments we’ve been through. Remember the days when we could and would talk about anything? Those long and all-nighter conversations filled with spontaneous thoughts whether they be hysterical or deep and meaningful?
I remember everything and I’m sure you do to. We’re trying to get things to how they used to be. But are we trying too hard? Because it’s obviously not happening.
I can’t let go of everything that we have. We both tend to push each other away at time and I know It’s probably me who is doing that the most.. It’s just that everytime I see you, I know that’s just another goodbye. How many goodbyes will I be able to handle until I finally miss you so much that I can’t even focus on schoolwork anymore.
We’ve been arguing a lot lately.. It’s to the point where it’s become a routine now. I’m sorry for all the pain that I’m putting you through. I can’t even assure you or not, whether it’ll be worth it.
I don’t know what’s happening to us right now.. But I hate it. I have love and every bit of drama it brings into my life. I hate love. I hate falling in love. I hate being in love. But now I’ve found myself in this bottomless pit of it.. I don’t know If I even like being in it anymore.
But for the sake of US, for the sake of having YOU, I’ll always hold on.
Every girl wants a boy who'll wipe her tears away with his own handkerchief, who'll listen to her intently while she rant about life, who'll walk her home from school, who'll get angry when someone insults her, who'll agree to give her a piggyback ride when her legs are weak, and who'll be there when no one is.
You don’t want to move on. You don’t want to let go. Because you feel that if you let go, you’ll lose hold of your life. You’ll lose control. You think you’ll go crazy.
You can move on, you just don’t want to, whether you know it or not. Moving on doesn’t mean you’ll lose control. Moving on doesn’t mean you’ve given up. Moving on doesn’t mean you’re weak. Moving on means you’re strong. Strong enough to face your past and accept it. Strong enough to conquer it and focus on your future. Strong enough to control your life.
I'm not looking to fall in love. I'm not even necessarily looking for a boyfriend right now. All I really want is to find a nice, good guy I can text late at night, joke around with, and be stupid with. Someone who likes the same music as me, someone I can easily talk to, someone I can be my total self around and not mind at all. A guy I can waste Friday nights with, laugh with, and have fun with. Someone who's not perfect, but understands me, you know?